Queenies Little Kingdom

Lately, I’ve been a little grumpy!  Maybe grumpy isn’t really the word…..anxious or stressed might fit better.  I’m snappy and sharp!  I respond to the simplest things in a harsh tone.  My kids are starting to make those faces that I used to make when my mom was being mean.  I get it!  I’m not being the kind of mom they really deserve.

I’m becoming my mother!

Now, as I look back at my teen years….I can’t help but come to some much wiser conclusions to what my mother’s problem could have been.  Life is stressful and teenagers are difficult to raise!  I’m not blaming my behavior off on any of my kids (I own it, people)…..but lack of cooperation from them can really set off an already ticking time bomb.  I can only imagine what “stuff” was hanging over my mom’s life.  Things happen that rob us of our peace and sometimes our joy!

I realize that nearing the end of school makes for some high stress days.  But I just can’t get over how intense they seem to be the older I get.  The students and staff alike are all buzzing with the “long year blues”.  I have a bad case myself.  I CANNOT wait for June 2nd!  I need a break!

In the meantime, I have to get a grip!  My family and students need me to take a chill pill.  It’s as if I’m stuck in a perpetual PMS warp.  I want out!  Help!

Lord,

You know me.  I’m not a grouch by nature.  I like happy.  I like fun.  I like my life.  But it seems like I’m spinning on a wheel of frustration.  Everything is overwhelming me.  Help me focus and relax.  Give me a spirit of peace and renew my heart-a-tude!  I need you…..every hour!

Amen.

PS-I need to call my mom and tell her how much I love her!    🙂

It’s official!  All three of my teenagers have been selected to serve as Prom Pages at our high school.  This is quite an honor!  Every single year, freshman students cross their fingers and hope that they are chosen to serve as mere slaves at the junior prom.  It’s the only way…..they will see Prom until it’s their turn to go.  So to call it exciting….is an understatement!

Gavin was the first in our family to serve (duh, he is the oldest!).    Each is nominated by students from the junior class and then put on a list where EVERYONE gets a chance to vote on the list of students.  It’s a cool process!  One that really says something about each student nominated.  They are peer chosen and every year….it’s a great group of kids.

When Ally was chosen, Gavin was a junior.  Now it’s Ally that’s a junior and Gates is the freshman.  We’ve just got ourselves a tradition!  Which is really cool because I always work at prom….so I get to enjoy the night with my kids!  Yay!  Now, prom is just 4 days away and the excitement is contagious.  The entire school is buzzing!  I can’t wait to post pictures of Ally in her dress and Gates in her page clothes!

2010  JCHS  Freshman Prom Pages

Gates is front row/white jeans

Poppy, Gavin & Nana

We’ve had a great week! Hubby’s parents have been in town for a visit and it’s been fun in spite of our still having to work and go to school. While they were here, Ally and Gates were in the school musical and IU’s spring choir concert was the same week. Oh and a bonus event…..Ally’s Touch of Class group performed for the First Christian Church senior adults. So they were able to see that too!

WOW!  The weather was beautiful and the trees have their leaves again.  It was also Sassafrass Festival weekend. Nana and Poppy went down to see how life was in the “old” days! Haha! We skipped out on that excitement! Been there, done that!

Now the grandparents are gone and life is quiet around our house. The upcoming weekend holds such excitement….it’s PROM!!! Ally has the most beautiful dress! Everything is falling into place, hair appointments on Wednesday & Saturday morning….flowers arranged, tickets bought, t-shirts ordered and dreams abound. Everyone is so excited!

Even me!

It’s almost time for my Sweetboy to move out of his dorm!  Just over a week and he’ll be home!  It’s been a fun first year at IU.  I’m so thankful he’s loving school and all that comes with it.  I just hope he likes working all summer…   🙂

I’ve always been a dreamer! But some things really put me in fantasy land. One of them is leading & teaching other women. I have tried to push the call away but God always brings me right back to it. I reason with Him and myself by pointing out my inadeqaucies and weaknesses. Remember Lord, I’m pretty pathetic? Oh you know that….? And you think that’s just what you’re looking for? Oh ok!

It’s been several years that I’ve known about She Speaks conferences in North Carolina. I’ve read every word I could get my hands on regarding the conference and dreamed that someday…..I too could be a participant! The cost is pretty steep for my scrawny little family budget. But I know God……and He’s got pull in all the right places! If He wants me there….baby, I’ll be there!

The Proverbs 31 ministry has once again opened up the door for a scholarship opportunity. I can’t even tell you how exciting this is to me. I’m psyched to the max! Even if I don’t win….SOMEONE will and I’ll be thrilled to see them live out their dream!

She Speaks has been instrumental in so many wonderful ladies and their speaking and book ministry. I know that this would be very beneficial for me. I just need it, ya’ll! I can’t be anymore than I am……as I currently sit. Just imagine me with some serious fine tuning?!! I’d be on fiyah! 🙂

I’m in the hat for one more chance to go. If that is part of God’s plan this summer…..I’m not going to play the doubt game any longer with myself. It’s going to be like a whisper from God….”See, I told you!”.

Hebrew 11:6 says that without faith it is impossible to please God, because everyone who comes to Him must believe.